My Hump Island
(you know the magical, non-exsistant place where you can have five people there for your beck and call... and it CANT be your spouse. They, sadly at this place, never exsisted.)

1. Vince Vaughn: Funny, smart, tall, sweet
2. David Duchovny: Funny, smart (went to Princeton for undergrad and Yale for grad!)
3. Mark Ruffalo: Short, has marbles in his mouth, kinda dirty
4. Michael Ian Black: Funny, good poker player
5. Jude Law: The stare (even though he is a cheater. on this island he is fully devoted.)

Who is on your "Hump Island"?

This is from my brother-in-law's blog (the one I went to his 17th annual 21st birthday party on sunday and i blogged aboout):
"Had Margaritas w/ Rachel, Tara, and Joe from work. I don't drink regular lime ones, nor do I drink ones on the rocks. People say it's a little girly, but first of all I think the lime is too bitter. Second of all, I like how the strawberry matches my period blood. (12/4)"

How could I NOT want to be around a guy with a sense of humor like that??? I love it!

his blog is http://www.myspace.com/glen8p

Have you ever felt like the worse part of yourself around certain people? There are a couple people in my life that for some reason I am in some rut with them. I absolutely don't feel like myself. I don't feel fun, and funny and relaxed but rather the darker, uptight bore. Opposite me. (I guess you could argue that maybe I have a high opinion about myself.)

I feel like that around my sister-in-law's family. I have known them for more than half my life and yet I instantly become the uptight, unfunny little sister tagalong to be ignored that I was at 14. A stereotypical Christian.

I am the same age as my sister-in-law's brother and we have been around each other alone and in a group growing up. He is kind enough to invite me to his annual "21st birthday party". I attended anything he and his parents invite us to which is basically Christmas and the July birthday. I am an outsider there which kills me because I have been an outsider for so long.

When I was 14, I would tag along with my brother and then girlfriend in that circle. I went off to college, got married and had babies and they didn't. My brother moved to Arizona.

I wouldn't be surprised that my bro and his wife came out more than they let me know and visit her inlaws and family without me tagging along again. They invite out of obligation.
I guess I thought having kids (my brother and wife can't) would help closen the relationship. Really, it has just highlighted the fact that they can't be bothered with us at all. They don't call or send gifts on the kids birthdays. At the annual birthday party/picnic they barely acknowledge we are there. Heck, my first baby was born the day before this blessed picnic and my brother didn't come by the hospital to meet his first niece until they stopped by on the way home to AZ.

Its like they are surrounded by a thick Plexiglas and I am pounding on the walls begging to belong. And because we barely speak at the picnic, unless I am dragging information out of them, they don't know me as an adult. They know what they remember, if they remember at all, a silly druggie tell tagging along to get out of an abusive house. Its so frustrating because I feel like I need to convince them that they would like me if they just go to know me.

I think my brother really doesn't care because he gets what he needs from his wife's family and I am just a reminder of what a disappointment his is.

Just some random thoughts

Teen girls always seem to want long beautiful hair. So we grow it out as long and flirty as possible. Then we get married and, either after a couple years or right after we have a baby, we chop it off. We think it will be sexy and sassy. Then reality hits that we have mom hair. So in our 30s we desperately try to grow it out again because "we wont be able to pull it off much longer because we are getting older." Then we cut it short again because, who are we kidding, we're old.

I called an infomercial today to order beauty products endorsed by Cindy Crawford. An informercial.

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